sometimes it still hurts to hear your name

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i remember how you said that there's nothing you want more, than making me happy and that there is nothing, nothing you fear more, than making me sick and to let me go. well, what has changed your mind ?

 you're gone, far away and i miss you.i miss you so sad. and maybe, you're not wasting any thought of how i feel, what i could think of you .of us. so maybe there is no me & you, no " forever & always " and no " i love you"  and yeah darling, actuall there's something i learned from our relationship: never to believe in promises, never to believe in words, never to give my heart so easily to someone like you, someone, who just took it and didn't know what he had.

"I can not live I can't breathe unless you do this with me" 

   I wanna have the same last dream again. The one where I wake up and I'm alive. Just as the four walls   close me within . My eyes are open up with pure sunlight. i'm the first to know . My dearest friends. Even if your hope has burned with time. Anything that is dead shall be re-grown . And your vicious pain, your warning sign .You will be fine

                                                                            ...... time can't heal all wounds 
                                                                                       and broken hearts last sometimes longer ... <'3